Everything has been sucha blurr these past few weeks.
so much fun
so much to learn
so much to see.

don't feel like talking about my india trip.
makes me feel "emo"

I found out something today,
well not really
guess I already sort of know it awhile back
just that it hasnt really sunken in and i refuse to accept the fact.
and when i let it sink in it felt really sad and heavy on my heart.
I really hate my personality..
i hate it so much..
im so entitled and proud and possessive..
how can i not hate myself when I am like that?